Title: Shadow Dancer

Gender: Male

Age: 26

Sun Sign: Aquarius

Chinese Sign: Water Dog

Location: London, UK

Who am I?

The cryptic answer would be that I'm complicated, deep, misunderstood and “spiritual” (whatever that means).

I don't know who I am. Life, so far, has been a complex series of false-starts, set backs and opportunities I've been too scared to take. The fear is still there, but my willingness to face it is stronger than ever. It is the set-backs and false-starts that cause the most problems.

After reading “Presence” by Senge, Scharmer et al, my interests took a sharp detour. I am moved by the simplicity and beauty of U Theory, and its powerful applicability. Dialogue and enlightened communication have become centre-stage for me, and I believe the reason for this is because my earlier years were categorised by an overwhelming urge to connect with someone who understood me, and a lack of those able to do so. After being a hermit teenager, I've come out of my shell with a huge passion for connecting with people. It's funny how life's dark clouds have shiny silver linings we can refuse, for years, to see.

I seek to be the very best I can. I seek to do this with those who walk a similar path, and fortunately they are starting to appear more and more. I desire to bring people together in a way that society is rarely capable of doing. I am fascinated by this new wave of integral consciousness which emerges in still-frame photographs at different points along my journey. I'm yet to piece those photographs into a coherent narrative in which my own life sits. Until the beginning of this year, I thought I could get to know myself purely through introspection, but now I sense that a more encompassing story for myself wants to be born. One where I know myself through the actions I take, and the path I am trying to birth for myself. Knowing myself through my deeds and my courage, rather than the focus of the finely tuned instrument I call my head.

Yes, I'm frustrated. Yes, I get really angry that things haven't start to happen for me yet. And sometimes, when I need it most, the universe responds to my cry for help. When it doesn't, there's always the gym. I re-discovered this little wonder in the last year. It is the best way I have found to deal with the sometimes agonizing stress of  waiting for the river to flow my way again. Maybe it is always flowing my way…

I just moved to London. And once again, I am comforted by something which I almost forgot I was capable of: I am in control. At least as much as this world will allow me to be :)

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